The "Too Much/Too Many" Tragedy

I've rarely/never been able to carry a single project through to its end without starting something else in the meantime. Case in point: I wrote a post on my newer blog already today (www.nicolenaiad.com) which inspired me to come and write a post over here on this one about this very topic. How very "meta."

I'm not quite sure what's behind this characteristic of mine, but it's rather infuriating. I have so many different e-mail accounts, blogs, paper journals, books, etc. started that I always feel like I'm in a state of panic. For the most part, I created them all as distinct entities for one purpose or another. For example, I have my school e-mail addresses, I have one that I used specifically for music contacts, one just because I liked the name and wanted something more anonymous and personal, and many, many more for absolutely no reason. 

It's like I have to have at least one account on each provider just for the sake of it. 

Blogs, however, have a purpose. I created this one as kind of a catch-all, but I have tens more strewn all over the internet that I really would like to condense somehow. Maybe I could link them all on my newer blog, the main one. I don't know why I've always felt the need to create anew rather than continue with the existing ones. It probably has something to do with the fact that it's easier to start from scratch than to go back and edit something, especially when there are so many considerations to account for.

I also have the same problem with apps. I think I have every single "to-do" and "calendar" app that exists on the iOS platform. None of which I utilize (but I'm going to go do that now that I just remembered). 

I need to create habits. My brain is always in a million different places, it's never linear. I complain about this a lot. In fact, it's probably my most consistent topic in all of my journals. 

And whenever I complain about it, I remember that I want to do something about it so I start to do something ... and that lasts for maybe a day or two and then I forget and get lost again.

So here's to that cycle.